How do i say hello

Sometimes people says that dream-high is unrealistic. But me personally in 14 years old see a high dream is such a fuel of energy to be active in a charge life. But it doesnt mean anything started when i was in 1st grade of vocational high school, i feel lost of identity. i cant feel any light in any circumtances. i didnt like the uniform that i wear, friends that talked to me, and that voices has become a distruption on my head at every single step into that school environment. like a walking dead girl, hard to describe things when i cant even feel the taste of my own existence. My mom asked me to have my senior high school in there. Although, i can choose wherever school by using my award certificate that ive got after participating a national competition in junior school. But, no matter what happen, i was still never had any options in that time. Ive lost a half of my own existense scalely for 2 years. Easy to forgot things. Until my family move into another city. And me into another school. I met strangers as a stranger in a strange place (old but gold). I can feel a lil bit life in there. I have friends. They are boys and 1 girl. We're laughing and being happy to gathering in simple ways. Mocking, fighting even in love like common high school teens alive. Until it becomes an only high school memories stickin' on my head, only a year of highschool moment. But at that time, i still keep confusing of my pshycical condition. Still have some episodes that i feel very detached with my body. It feels like my feeling when i was watching my body in a dream. So i started to called it "dreaming feeling".